Depressed?

I did a couple of tests that Jun got from her psychology class that were supposed to assess my intelligence, hardiness, stress, and mood level.

The intelligence part wasn't much, just showed that I'm mostly interested in "existential" matters, in other words, I'm very religious. Hrms.

The hardiness test shows that I'm of moderate hardiness, which I liken to being the wooden house in the "Three Little Pigs" story. Rough me up a little and I'll stand, hit a tad harder, and I'll collapse.

Doing the stress test was a no-brainer, I basically chose all the worst options, indicating that I'm bloody stressed up *grin* Blame the army, seriously. Restriction of freedom, forced hiatus of my plans, problems everywhere. No control over what happens in my life, as how Jun puts it, can be extremely frustrating, especially for a "Type A"(took another test to proof this) person like me.

Depressed. That's what I am. That's how I feel and that's what the test results show. "Moderate Depression". Again. I blame the army. I'm not shifting responsibility of what happens in my life, but it's hard to blame me how what I have little control over. There are so many things I want to do. So little time. I don't even spend enough time with Jun as it is, but I'm happy that I'm actually seeing my father more now since I enlisted then when I was in poly.

I need to actively work on self-improvement, increasing my knowledge, and fight to retain what I already know. Six months into army, and I've forgotten most of what I studied in poly. Access Control List. Forgot how to do. Brought a Cisco networking book and NSC networking notes into camp last week.

Is this blog entry very boring? I kinda think it is.

God help me.

Anyway, check out Stephen King's Dark Tower series. It's a fantastic read.