Paint my world

paint my world, with a million different colors

black, for my dark and uncaring self
grey, for the cynically sarcastic me
red, for the times i try to love
pink, for the times i cry

orange, when i laugh out loud
green, when i'm never satisfied
gold, when i smile brilliantly
brown, when i curse and swear

in my world, a flurry of colors
i struggle to find myself