have you ever hidden something so well, you forget where you hid it? it's somewhere in the depths of my soul and it's falling deeper into the abyss with each passing day. Every remark, every thought, every action pushes it further away from the surface. i can't help myself, i can't help the things i say, the thoughts that run though my mind. what was once put on has gained ground and taken dominance. and like it or not, this is who i am.

habits, they say, are formed with every action. it's like in a rpg game where the more you use a skill, the more experience you gain and the stronger you become in that area. over emphasize and you end up unbalanced.

experiences, they, say, molds your character. or rather, how you handle what life dishes out - or what you pig-headedly get yourself into - first reflects your character, then goes on to change it.

take then, nothing in life, lightly. do not be careless with your words, nor your actions, for there's no such thing as a meaningless action; nor one without consequence.

nope, nothing happened to me. just observing.

Fate of accomplished computing students

sigh I think it is a trend to not finish your paper.... shit says:
well my guess is my interrupt model is fucking up... but cannot see how it dies

sigh I think it is a trend to not finish your paper.... shit says:
there is not values overflowing

sigh I think it is a trend to not finish your paper.... shit says:
all values are checked for their boundaries

[C-Towner] Sanctus Shaun says:
ur grammar

[C-Towner] Sanctus Shaun says:
getting more and more computer scientist like

sigh I think it is a trend to not finish your paper.... shit says:
hahah you mean bad grammer

sigh I think it is a trend to not finish your paper.... shit says:
fine.

sigh I think it is a trend to not finish your paper.... shit says:
there is NO values overflowing

sigh I think it is a trend to not finish your paper.... shit says:
lol

[C-Towner] Sanctus Shaun says:
still wrong bro.

[C-Towner] Sanctus Shaun says:
haha

[C-Towner] Sanctus Shaun says:
there ARE no values overflowing

[C-Towner] Sanctus Shaun says:
or even better

[C-Towner] Sanctus Shaun says:
There are no overflowing values

sigh I think it is a trend to not finish your paper.... shit says:
aiya what ever

[C-Towner] Sanctus Shaun says:
HAHAHA


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Sheares Dinner and Dance 0708

It's dinner and dance again!

John Adams

As usual, instead of studying, I clicked my way around the net and found something interesting. This John Adams guy, America's 2nd president, has very Oscar Wilde-ish quotes. Here are some:

“Democracy... while it lasts is more bloody than either [aristocracy or monarchy]. Remember, democracy never lasts long. It soon wastes, exhausts, and murders itself. There is never a democracy that did not commit suicide.”

“This would be the best of all possible worlds, if there were no religion in it” (for you, japheth)

“Our Constitution was made only for a moral and religious people. It is wholly inadequate to the government of any other.”

“That the desires of the majority of the people are often for injustice and inhumanity against the minority, is demonstrated by every page of the history of the whole world”

“It is wrong to admit into the Constitution the idea that there can be property in man” (applaud)

“I cannot conceive such a Being could make such a Species as the human, merely to live and die on this earth” (but God didn't...we have eternal souls)

“Because power corrupts, society's demands for moral authority and character increase as the importance of the position increases.”

More here

sick

The frailty of the human body serves to remind us that no man is an island. One might be the most independent individual in the world, but when sickness strikes, nothing beats having a devoted parent, or partner to nurse you back to health.

I'm falling sick .. body's aching, throat's sore and my head feels like a million tons. I'm in hall and people who care for me are miles away.

Haha, quite a sorry picture. But of course times like these are great for crawling back to God and seeking His healing and company. I have my vitamin C and my panadol flu and my God who unconditionally loves me. I'm blessed, like that.

Imitation

If imitation is the greatest form of flattery, I should be extremely flattered by this.

Check out her introduction on the left, then look at mine.

Hm

It's true, without God, all is emptiness, a chasing after the wind.

After 4 weeks of staying in hall, I realised I left my bible at home.

There's an emptiness within, that only He can feel, that only He can fill.

And then something else struck me - my dad has yet to send any birthday wishes. no sms, no phone call.

Well, I forgot both my parents' birthdays this year; 11th, 12th July, in the middle of Union Camp. Only remembered on the 14th. Ah well.

Tell me ten words. Tell me things I don't know. Tell me about yourself, tell me about your God, tell me about mine, tell me about the Creator of Heaven and Earth.

I've a presentation tomorrow. I pray I'm able to put what I learned in therapy to practical use.

I'm sleepy, and I shall hit the sack.

Climb On 2007

It's held at scorching hot non-airconditioned Tampines again, and Team NYP with Weeli's dad standing in for Weeli took part again, although we left for breakfast immediately after registering and stopped climbing at lunch time :D

Pics, of course! (From Japheth's Camera, so there's a lot of him and me and few of Jeryd. Wait for Jeryd's updates to see pictures of him)

Birthday Presents!

One Beal Harness, One Ocun leather chalk bag, one chalk ball.

THANKS GUYS! And girls =)

Missing person

1st Verse:
Another question in me
One for the powers that be
It's got me thrown
And so I put on my poker face
And try to figure it out
This undeniable doubt
A common occurrence
Feeling so out of place
Guarded and cynical now
Can't help but wondering how
My heart evolved into
The rock beating inside of me
So I reel such a stoic ordeal
Where's that feeling that I don't feel

Chorus:
There was a boy who had the faith to move a mountain
And like a child he would believe without a reason
Without a trace he disappeared into the void and
I've been searching for that missing person

2nd verse:
Under a lavender moon
So many thoughts consume me
Who dimmed that glowing light
That once burned so bright in me
Is this a radical phase
A problematical age
That keeps me running
From all that I used to be
Is there a way to return
Is there a way to unlearn
That carnal knowledge
That's chipping away at my soul
Have I been gone too long
Will I ever find my way home

Chorus:
There was a boy who had the faith to move a mountain
And like a child he would believe without a reason
Without a trace he disappeared into the void and
I've been searching for that missing person

He used to want to try to walk the straight and narrow
He had a fire and he could feel it in the marrow
It's been a long time and I haven't seen him lately, though
I've been searching for that missing person

Bridge:
For that missing person
For that missing person

Oh oh, oh oh,

Chorus:
There was a boy who had the faith to move a mountain
And like a child he would believe without a reason
Without a trace he disappeared into the void and
I've been searching...

He used to want to try to walk the straight and narrow
He had a fire and he could feel it in the marrow
It's been a long time and I haven't seen him lately, though
I've been searching for that missing person

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Where are you?
Where are you... (fades to close)

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7th September

His birthday's on the 8th of September, one day after mine. We lived together; his mum and he having moved in with my dad and I. We squabbled, naturally, like brothers do, but he was company, and together with his mum they gave me what resembled a family.

I was not particularly fond of combing my hair back then, and it was his mum who convinced me to do so, appealing to my vanity by saying that combing my hair would make it nice and shiny. She smirked to my dad when I bought the argument. Never do that in front of a kid, you insult his intelligence.

Anyway, she turned out to be a psycho who socked my dad under his eye after which he gave her a solid blow to the stomach. Such temper =)

That was the end of my pseudo family, and it was back to dad and I till he got his next girlfriend, but never as attached as he was to the crazy lady. He never seemed to learn though, and got involved with a few other ladies of dubious sanity. Tsk.

And now, I'm 23. Many thanks to my friends who made my birthday week special. Thanks for the gifts, thanks for the drinks, thanks for the company =) =)

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Herald Assembly's 40th anniversary dinner

The church I'm supposed to be attending celebrated its 40th anniversary by throwing a free dinner for members and invited guests last Saturday at The Pines. I went for it, so here are some pictures :)
And of course, Charis, Rachel and Jasmin graduated and happily brought their convo gowns to the dinner for a photo session. They took pity on me, the cameraman with the N73 and allowed me to be in some of the pictures. I'm so proud of my cousin, graduating despite spending most of her waking time glued to some korean/japanese/hong kong/taiwanese drama serial.

How far can looks get you?

Someone googled "How far can looks get you" and a blog post appeared as one of the results. I came across something a little more interesting though; someone a girl posting in a forum about how ugly she is and how she wants to be an exotic dancer because one of her imaginary guys(because real life guys suck) wants to date one.

A little sad, isn't it.

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